It's getting closer and I am actually excited. I am working hard but not stressing out. My workouts have changed dramatically and now I am doing cardio sometimes twice/ day in preparation for the show. The last month of this process is the hardest and I am hanging in there. The most difficult part is pushing through challenging workouts with no starchy carbohydrates. I am on a 2/0/1/0 starch rotation right now...meaning one day I can have two starches and the rest is one fruit and all proteins/ vegetables. The next day zero starches, 1 fruit and proteins/ veggies...and so on. I feel like I have eaten a forest full of peppers, broccoli, onions, mushrooms, asparagus and celery...oh, all main veggies have to be green right now.
At times I am elated- feeling pleased with the progress I have made and excited about the future days to come. This process has helped me become more focused and better at managing my time.
But, other times I want to scream, divorce the gym and all of it's natural partners- including sports bras, running shoes, ipods and workout clothes...and throw my face into my husband's yellow cake with chocolate frosting birthday cake that I had someone make at Walmart so that I didn't have to.
I told myself that I would be honest in this blog. so I am going to honor that promise. I am fighting my flesh daily right now and it is hard. But, I know without a shadow of a doubt this is exactly where I am supposed to be right now and I see the trickle effect it is having within the studio.
It is OKAY to reach! To push beyond your percieved limitations. To stop making excuses, get up and move on. It hurts. At time it makes me angry when my body "doesn't want to" do what I need it to do...but the more times I take just one more step during those moments of physical resistance and mental struggle- the HIGHER the threshold becomes! God is so great. SO much greater than our minds can perceive and when he gives you a dream and a vision it's so easy to "do it later..." and stay complacent in your comfortable place...waiting for the planets to align first before making a step. I've been in that place. I've planted a garden, and built a fence around that place as though I were going to stay in it forever.
The calling to lead has been a scary road. But, I love people and I feel an indescribable amount of joy when I see someone dare to leave their comfort zone, reach and evolve into a stronger, more balanced, empowered stuard of the beautiful body God gave them.
There are times when I see my team training people, but not just training...teaching- offering their whole hearts and the love of the Lord to thier clients and I am completely awstruck...humbled, without words by the amazing privelage I have been given...that the Lord has chosen me to be a connecting part in this beautiful community of positive change. I am such a sinner, broken but redeemed by the blood of Christ and used despite of my imperfections.
I started this process whining, but have come to realize how blessed I really am. The only way to lead, is by example. I am grateful.
Angela Sweet
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